It's about time I restart this blog of mine. Once upon a time, I'd like to think I was a semi-decent writer. Over the years my ability to write and my dedication to the art diminished. I find this activity a healthy way to outlet my over-emotional thoughts, so here I am to give it another go in attempts to regain a piece of my tranquility.
Speaking of being overly emotional, let's get to the point of this restart. According to my life path in numerology, I am a freedom seeker, I look for change, and I am a spiritualist.
This all seems fairly accurate for me.
As we have just entered Scorpio season, the energies have also changed and greatly affected how I am feeling. Now is the time to ignite change, passion, intuition, and emotions.
It is no secret to anyone that spends any amount of time with me that my mental health has taken a toll more so than ever and I am grasping straws to regain myself. More so recently, my emotions have really taken over.
This change rising from the sun entering Scorpio has really started me on an emotional rollercoaster and the amount of stress in my life that I usually do well at burying I just cant seem to choke down. If you see me just know that there is a slim chance that I am actually "me" and I am likely disassociating because that's how I'm getting by right now. Also know, I have gotten really good at masking so please take me for what I am or leave me be.
Back on point, this energy shift has brought my spirits back in with me closely. My intuition and connection to the spirit realm is flooding through these newly opened Scorpio gates.
I keep having weird visions in my peripheral, the lights in my house have been flickering again when they previously stopped for quite a while, and I am completely exhausted. Beyond drained. I can't focus and I feel like I keep tilting in and out of manic cleaning energy and complete task paralysis.
Yesterday I couldn't wait to get to bed. In fact, I was in bed by 8:30 p.m. Anyone who knows me knows Im barely settling down by that time most nights. I woke up exhausted still today. For several days my body has ached more than usual and today was one of the worst for my mobility.
These last few days I can't shake the feeling that my spirits are talking to me. No, screaming at me. I just can't hear it. I can feel them loud and clear but I am so cluttered and self absorbed I cannot process the message. So, per usual, I turned to the cards.
I am never disappointed in my messages. My spirits never cease to amaze me with their wisdom and sometimes outright blunt advice. Often times I feel their connection leading me long before I reach out and receive the message.
Tonight I even thought about not reading the message because, again, I feel downright exhausted. I couldn't shake the feeling that I had to make it a priority. I had to make me a priority. Even the dog seemed to be nudging me to take care of my needs for once.
I completed my routine and began to connect with my all knowing guides. This has to be one of the most connected readings I have ever felt.
As I spread the cards I felt physical connection pulling me to the cards in my spread. Some cards felt cold and others warm. The warmest ones pulled me in. This was a game of hot and cold. Within the warm ones that intuitive pull helped me gather my 5.
Once I had the spread I immediately felt intense emotion leading to tears. It was a very emotional message. Each card had me scoffing in disbelief as it pinpointed my exact issue, the challenge, the solution, my hidden, and of course the outcome.
What I will share is that with each card the dog came and sat with me, calmer than he has been all day. The outcome was death, in reverse. SO....there's that. It was an intense message but one that needed to be heard.
I felt wound up for a bit after, physically had my response, then felt better. Now I feel slightly more level headed. I have a plan to make a plan this weekend. What else is new?
I have this pup on my lap providing his active duty emotional support and I am finishing up the sad, sad ending to Shameless.
Now that I have had my emotional purge for the evening, off I go to find my rest. Plan to hear more from me. Follow along or pass it by, eh.
