well, i workd 8:00-5:30 today. im exhausted from it as i have still not adjusted to working full time again. i cant sleep at night and i hate mornings. terrible combination. tomorrow i work 7:30-5:30. UGH. on a happy note i finally got the key to the classroom :)
i am trying to work on actually eating so i can start focusing on working out. i want to get in shape before david comes home...for both of us. i am tired of feeling the way i feel. the problem is i cant muster the energy to actually work out. and i am just not hungry. so tonight is my re-re-re-re-re(X infinity) start at actually eating. tonight i had a piece of salmon with a salad (minimal dressing) and a glass of wine. i know the wine isnt healthy since it is white wine, but from my research it can be beneficial because it helps me destress. and stress is a big reason why my stomach always hurts and why i cant sleep, why i cant lose weight, etc. so in my eyes, a single glass of wine with dinner is healthy.
today i got to talk to my good friend, barb. i tried to see her when i went to indiana but didnt hear from her. turns out she was in florida for 3 weeks. she owns a house out there! how awesome is that? she shared some really excited stuff with me, i with her, and we just caught up. it was so, so nice to hear from her. i miss her.
ok i am off to try and rest. the daylight is going to challenge me. i welcome the darkness! usually summer is my favorite time of year but i am just not feeling it this year. maybe its a sign im old....UH OH!
love,
ME
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Monday, June 25, 2012
work and addictions (P.S. SHOUT OUT TO MY BOO JEN!)
i suppose i will start with work. today was a much better day than any of the days last week. i am finally feeling like i have a grip on the classroom. i think i needed the two days off to clear my mind and gather myself in preparation for this week. my first assistant started today. she seems really nice. i like that she has had some experience with the age group so i didnt have to give her much direction. wednesday my second assistant starts. she has never work with the babies before...i am hoping she wont need much direction as i am not one for handing them out....my tone of voice always seems more harsh than i mean it to be.
i guess for the summer the school is providing weekly themes for the classes to create curriculums under. normally, it would be up to me to decide the theme. this week's theme is pirates. that is really hard to work with considering my students are roughly 18 months old. the focus should be on process art rather than product art. pirate stuff is product based. so all i have is a few art projects, a pirate song, books, and activities like searching for treasure and learning pirate words. "yo ho ho and a bottle of juice" LOL or the hub's favorite "how do you know you are a pirate?" "you just ARGH" too funny :P
so far so good, anyway. we will see where the week takes me.
now, i have two addictions to share today. 1. pico de gallo 2. picking at my cuticles
1. pico de gallo
i can not wait until payday to buy more food to make my pico. it is so delicious i cant even help myself. i love it. and i found some delicous chips to go with it. its my new favorite dinner...healthy, i know. but, seriously, its more healthy than many other foods i could be eating. the salsa part is healthy at least.
HEY, a girl can dream!
2. this whole cuticle thing....driving me insane!!!!!!!!
i have this OCD thing where i cant stop picking my cuticles. i was doing really well for awhile. i started using aveeno and it was really working. it was moisturizing enough that i stopped picking. the problem is that i do it without even knowing i am doing it. i do it when im nervous, anxious, upset, bored, the list is endless. basically any emotion i have has me picking them. once i start, then i continue because i have skin hanging. i know, i know, its gross. so, yeah, i was doing well until i went to indiana. since then i am back at it. i just realized today because my fingers are raw and i am in SO SO much pain. i need to find my way back to not doing it. i hate this feeling.
well, im signing off. going to start reading 50 shades freed.
LOVE TO MY BOO!! <3
i guess for the summer the school is providing weekly themes for the classes to create curriculums under. normally, it would be up to me to decide the theme. this week's theme is pirates. that is really hard to work with considering my students are roughly 18 months old. the focus should be on process art rather than product art. pirate stuff is product based. so all i have is a few art projects, a pirate song, books, and activities like searching for treasure and learning pirate words. "yo ho ho and a bottle of juice" LOL or the hub's favorite "how do you know you are a pirate?" "you just ARGH" too funny :P
so far so good, anyway. we will see where the week takes me.
now, i have two addictions to share today. 1. pico de gallo 2. picking at my cuticles
1. pico de gallo
i can not wait until payday to buy more food to make my pico. it is so delicious i cant even help myself. i love it. and i found some delicous chips to go with it. its my new favorite dinner...healthy, i know. but, seriously, its more healthy than many other foods i could be eating. the salsa part is healthy at least.
HEY, a girl can dream!
2. this whole cuticle thing....driving me insane!!!!!!!!
i have this OCD thing where i cant stop picking my cuticles. i was doing really well for awhile. i started using aveeno and it was really working. it was moisturizing enough that i stopped picking. the problem is that i do it without even knowing i am doing it. i do it when im nervous, anxious, upset, bored, the list is endless. basically any emotion i have has me picking them. once i start, then i continue because i have skin hanging. i know, i know, its gross. so, yeah, i was doing well until i went to indiana. since then i am back at it. i just realized today because my fingers are raw and i am in SO SO much pain. i need to find my way back to not doing it. i hate this feeling.
well, im signing off. going to start reading 50 shades freed.
LOVE TO MY BOO!! <3
Sunday, June 24, 2012
beginning my blog
i figured i would start a blog. i think it would do me some good to vent about things. i am having a hard time dealing with david being gone. he is my lifeline and i am struggling to keep my head above water without him around.
well, anyway....its just me and the dogs and the cat here. they can be annoying but they are also very cuddly. they know when i need comforting. i love them. hopefully i have the chance to add a pit to the family when david gets home ;)
so i slept pretty much all day. i have been restless for the last month. sleeping all day was a bad idea, obviously. i am going to stuggle to sleep tonight. no more sleeping in for this girl! i am back to a full-time job. but more on that later. i mowed the lawn this evening. the yard was a flippin' mess from me being gone for 2 weeks. the weeds are growing like crazy. i am going to have to invest in some yard products like weed prevention as well as tools for trimming bushes and trees. eventually i would like to try and start a garden although i am not sure how well that will work in the desert heat. so when i was mowing the lawn i noticed one of the sprinkler heads was loose but it was on the edge of the yard so i wasnt sure if it was mine or the neighbors. so i went to the neighbors house to ask about it. i dont know how to fix that stuff. the guy answers the door "yes?" how rude! i tell him about it, tell him i dont know if its mine or his and that i dont know how to fix it. i tell him david is gone and i dont know how to do this yard stuff. no offer to help or anything. not that i wanted him to offer, but how rude. ugh...sad because his daughters are so nice. but anyway, forget him.
well, this is just the start of my blog. more of a test run. i think this is going to be a good way to let the family and friends now how i am and what i am up to. it is also an opportunity for me to release my thoughts and try to relax.
i will try and remember to write tomorrow about my new job. (:
Love, ME
well, anyway....its just me and the dogs and the cat here. they can be annoying but they are also very cuddly. they know when i need comforting. i love them. hopefully i have the chance to add a pit to the family when david gets home ;)
so i slept pretty much all day. i have been restless for the last month. sleeping all day was a bad idea, obviously. i am going to stuggle to sleep tonight. no more sleeping in for this girl! i am back to a full-time job. but more on that later. i mowed the lawn this evening. the yard was a flippin' mess from me being gone for 2 weeks. the weeds are growing like crazy. i am going to have to invest in some yard products like weed prevention as well as tools for trimming bushes and trees. eventually i would like to try and start a garden although i am not sure how well that will work in the desert heat. so when i was mowing the lawn i noticed one of the sprinkler heads was loose but it was on the edge of the yard so i wasnt sure if it was mine or the neighbors. so i went to the neighbors house to ask about it. i dont know how to fix that stuff. the guy answers the door "yes?" how rude! i tell him about it, tell him i dont know if its mine or his and that i dont know how to fix it. i tell him david is gone and i dont know how to do this yard stuff. no offer to help or anything. not that i wanted him to offer, but how rude. ugh...sad because his daughters are so nice. but anyway, forget him.
well, this is just the start of my blog. more of a test run. i think this is going to be a good way to let the family and friends now how i am and what i am up to. it is also an opportunity for me to release my thoughts and try to relax.
i will try and remember to write tomorrow about my new job. (:
Love, ME
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