Here I am, more than a year since my last post. Looking back on my previous posts really brings to light just how much my mind has deteriorated. Depression, thyroid, child rearing, completion of school? Perhaps a combination of some or all of these. i am almost mourning for the loss of my writing abilities and quirkiness. it makes me miss myself that much more.
so, since its been so long, it might be rough start. bare with me please as i remember to take this time for myself and as i remember how to compose. and spell for that matter. and remember how to be computer literate.
i have too much and nothing on my mind. it might be a whirlwind of letters to the internet if i can allow myself this time to compose my feelings. im a mother now. a stay at home mother at that. who would have thought? it was always my dream but the reality is so far from what i ever dreamed as a child.
should i reinvent this blog and make it about my journey as a mother? should i leave it like it is? i surely cant delete the delicate gold i once wrote. for now i perked up the place. a small disguise for those that know me. it makes me smile though. i know much of what i will write will revolve around la princesa. i cant have her beautiful soul mingling with the once dim blog that this was. so heres to happy. heres to my baby making me the best version of myself i can be as a mommy.
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