i dub thee.......marty II

RIP marty

sad news for my zebra friends. this monday morning i had the unwelcome news that our beloved class pet, marty, passed over the weekend.  cause of death: unknown.  the water was treated and correct temperature and he has ample food.  we found him at the bottom of the tank.

although he was a total asshole, he will be missed.  my children are not even 2 yet, so i didnt feel it right to have a funeral and explain death to them. they just wouldnt get it.

it broke my heart to flush the jerk down the toilet :(  one girl saw me moving his tank to the sink and she was asking about him, but i told her he was sleeping.  that is our staple response whenever we dont want the kids bothering him, so it worked fine.

i dub thee marty II

i went to petsmart on my lunch break and we got a new marty for the class. he isnt quite the same, though.  it is weird for me to call him marty, but i must keep the name for the children's sake.

he doesnt look the same, but close enough.  maybe that sounds terrible. i just dont see a good way of telling a one year old that marty died and we dont know why. he was still fairly new to the class.  marty II has more color and is already proving to have more patience with the children.










in other news, i have a doctor appointment tomorrow. i went on friday but they claimed i didnt have an appointment. so i confirmed today that i do have an appointment and i am going tomorrow. i will be seen either way. end of story.  i am still tired all the time, and i am getting sick...its that time of the month.  once a month i come down with an illness. that is the main reason i am going to the doctor.  i feel like a hypochondriac (sp) but i am tired of being tired and sick of being sick.

it sucks being that person that always has something to complain about. i dont like being that person.  i try to keep it to myself but it is so frustrating living day in and day out feeling like shit.  i cannot have a single all good day. my health comes in waves throughout the day, the week, the month.  its ridiculous.  i hope i get to see my PCM (primary care manager) so that i can be seen by a real doctor who may give me some real insight.

for as tired as i am all the time, i can never sleep. then i drag all day. at first i thought i just needed a boost so i bought a rockstar.  tried that for a few days, it didnt help. i sleep all weekend, doesnt work. i just dont know what to do with my ridiculousness. HELP.